"I am guiding you in the way of wisdom, and I am leading you on the right path." proverbs 4:11

Oh my soul

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Published on November 4th, 2013 @ 10:43:00 am , using 304 words, 1567 views

Psalm 103

sunset over puelblo resevoir, CO (see the heart?)

Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And all that is within me, bless His holy name.
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And forget none of His benefits;


Who pardons all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases;
Who redeems your life from the pit,
Who crowns you with lovingkindness and compassion;
Who satisfies your years with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle.

The Lord performs righteous deeds
And judgments for all who are oppressed.
 He made known His ways to Moses,
His acts to the sons of Israel.

The Lord is compassionate and gracious,
Slow to anger and abounding in lovingkindness.
He will not always strive with us,
Nor will He keep His anger forever.
He has not dealt with us according to our sins,
Nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.

For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
So great is His lovingkindness toward those who fear Him.
As far as the east is from the west,
So far has He removed our transgressions from us.
Just as a father has compassion on his children,
So the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him.
For He Himself knows our frame;
He is mindful that we are but dust.


As for man, his days are like grass;
As a flower of the field, so he flourishes.
When the wind has passed over it, it is no more,
And its place acknowledges it no longer.
But the lovingkindness of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear Him,
And His righteousness to children?s children,
To those who keep His covenant
And remember His precepts to do them.

The Lord has established His throne in the heavens,
And His sovereignty rules over all.
Bless the Lord, you His angels,
Mighty in strength, who perform His word,
Obeying the voice of His word!

Bless the Lord, all you His hosts,
You who serve Him, doing His will.
Bless the Lord, all you works of His,
In all places of His dominion;
Bless the Lord, O my soul!

(photos of some of His benefits taken by myself except for the peacocks-those were taken by my daughter hannah.  the giraffe and the bridge are on the nile river north of uganda, the rest are from around colorado)

31 days on provision: the final prayer

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Published on October 31st, 2013 @ 10:15:00 pm , using 181 words, 1374 views


The Lord God Almighty-He is our Great Provider.

For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God.

Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen.  ephesians 3:14-20


this concludes 31 days on Provision.  To see the first post in the series click here.  To read the entire series click here and read backwards (the first post is listed last, the latest post is listed first-i don't know how to change that. thank you for grace.)

things provided

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Published on October 30th, 2013 @ 10:07:00 pm , using 581 words, 615 views


1. The act of providing or making previous preparation.

2. Things provided; preparation; measures taken beforehand, either for security, defense or attack, or for the supply of wants.



v.t. [L. provideo,literally to see before; pro and video, to see.]

1. To procure beforehand; to get, collect or make ready for future use; to prepare.

Abraham said, God will provide himself a lamb for a burnt-offering. Gen.22.

5. To foresee; a Latinism. [Not in use.]

6. Provide, in a transitive sense, is followed by against or for. We provide warm clothing against the inclemencies of the weather; we provide necessaries against a time of need; or we provide warm clothing for winter, &c.


i remember when i stumbled upon Abe?s words.  

I have been driven many times upon my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go.

i was walking along admiring some art and various quotes all art-ed up.  but his quote stopped me in my tracks. i stood and stared at it and pondered.  pondered what it must have been like for him to be president during the civil war.  pondered when he said that-maybe it was before he was president?  instantly i felt like i knew the man.  because i knew by experience exactly what he expressed so well.

as i?ve been thinking through this theme of provision this month-and the many time?s i?ve found myself driven to my knees because there was no where else...

i see the gift of having nowhere else to go-it?s teaching me to choose to go nowhere else.  my need is so great and His provisions my only hope.

because life is hard.  and the days are long. and the years are short. and discouragement is everywhere.  and life is beauty-full. and the days are filled with romance and art and breakfast in bed menus and sun sets that take my breath away. 

the really hard stuff.  and the really beautiful stuff.  both and all of it-

He sees it before, He takes measures beforehand, for security, defense, attack, and the supply of wants.  he makes ready for future use.  He provides......

hope for the hypocrite, art, courage, no school, cloud of witnesses, Father, Himself-Provider and Deliverer, wisdom, kept strong, His Presence....constant and faithful, growth in becoming ok with the person that is me, meeting me right here, a good story, power to enjoy, a place to go, sealed secure, rest, stores, knowledge, music, a Good Shepherd, help in the tension, romance, access, a hiding place, and an invitation to deeper understanding on a subject-in this case it was His provisions.

.....against this hard and beautiful life.

i was talking with my Father this morning.  and the truth that He whispered into my heart is this:

it?s really about you and I.  (our relationship)

about your heart growing and expanding as you

experience Me

 By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence. And because of his glory and excellence, he has given us great and precious promises.
 2 Peter 1: 3-4.

this is part of a 31 day series on Provision.  To see the first post in the series click here.  To read the entire series click here and read backwards (the first post is listed last, the latest post is listed first-i don't know how to change that. thank you for grace.)

things provided: hope for the hypocrite

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Published on October 29th, 2013 @ 12:56:00 pm , using 581 words, 549 views

Matthew chapter 6.

?you are not to be like the hypocrites.....you are not to be like the hypocrites....you are not to be like the hypocrites....?  over and over ?the Lord knows i need repetition to pay attention.

my hypocrisy .

in case reading Matthew 5 and 6 didn?t open my eyes to it, the Lord orchestrated some events to open my eyes to it.

Sunday my pastor said this;

?Sin loses its power when i tell the truth about it.?

so here it is.

the truth about it.

when they call i don?t want to answer.  when i answer i don?t want to help.  when they lost my number i was delighted.  now they have it again, i?m not delighted in the least bit.  when i help it is out of obedience, not desire.  i?m unable to now discern boundaries-because i want to build up a high tower and secure my fortress so that it is impenetrable-those are the boundaries i would like to operate under. 

another thing i?m chewing on that my pastor said Sunday; (his first day back after 6 weeks of leave) is this:

This summer i told the Lord over and over, ?i can?t live like this?

now it?s; ?how do i live like this??

i?ve been saying it too.  for different reasons, but i can?t count how many times i?ve said to the Lord; ?i can?t live like this.?

how do i welcome people into my world whom  i don?t love and don?t want to love?  how do i smile when i pick them up and say a cheerful hello when what i really feel is.....aarrgg? 


it sounds so harsh and i so want to tell all about why how i?m feeling is perfectly justifiable. 

and some things may be-if my heart wasn?t so selfish and  hardened against them i would be able to discern that.

but my heart has calloused over and there is no love there that i can conjure up.

so here i am.

telling the truth about it.

to the One who is safe to bear it all to.....and the internet? that feels a little....um...foolish.

but that is the truth of this heart of mine.

and the only hope is the One who died for love of me.

the One whose power raises the dead.

these words of Switchfoot have been such an encouragement.  they?ve been on repeat in my brain for over a week now.  (from the Lord i?m sure so that i?d process through this awareness of my sin straight to the gospel and who. He. is. )

i?m not copping out.

because He?s raising the dead in me.

For God Who said, Let light shine out of darkness, has shone in our hearts so as [to beam forth] the Light for the illumination of the knowledge of the majesty and glory of God [as it is manifest in the Person and is revealed] in the face of Jesus Christ (the Messiah).

However, we possess this precious treasure [the divine Light of the Gospel] in [frail, human] vessels of earth, that the grandeur and exceeding greatness of the power may be shown to be from God and not from ourselves. 2 Corinthians 4:6-7

i keep forgetting to add this in....

this is part of a 31 day series on Provision.  To see the first post in the series click here.  To read the entire series click here and read backwards (the first post is listed last, the latest post is listed first-i don't know how to change that. thank you for grace.)


things provided: art

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Published on October 28th, 2013 @ 01:48:00 pm , using 644 words, 1194 views


all those years homeschooling, one thing i couldn?t teach my children was art.

we finger painted and colored with chalk and played with clay.  but there was no formal teaching going on.

my youngest struggled to find himself. 

What color popsicle do you want?

        What color do you think i should have? 

this sort of thing happened all the time.  i prayed and longed for him to first know how he felt or what he wanted, and then have courage to express it.

last year we (he and i) decided to homeschool one more year.  he just didn?t feel ready yet to join his brother at our neighborhood public school.  so i was in the bookstore buying some materials and i ?stumbled? upon an Art curriculum.  It looked like something i could actually be successful at using.  i stood and prayed and pondered for a bit.  i had enrolled my daniel in a ?thursday school? where he would take electives like art and spanish and pe.  but the Spirit nudged and i bought it.

lesson 1 was going along great until it was time for him to do the art.  the book didn?t tell him specifically what to draw or how to draw it ?here?s how to draw a bear-now you draw a bear.?  no, it taught a concept and gave freedom in applying that concept at the childs level. ?Artist?s compose, here?s what it means to compose.  now you pick a few things to compose into a picture.? 

he sat and sat and sat and cried and begged me to just tell him what to draw. 

but i wouldn?t.

and i grieved watching him struggle so.

but finally he drew something.

and learned that he could.

and all year long this art changed him.

no.... not it changed him.

it drew him out.

and he grew in confidence and opinions and expressing of himself (and so yes, we experienced more conflict in the home)

but that was so worth seeing my guy develop more into who he actually was.

and it was the art that facilitated it.


something in me began to look.  listening to a friend describe what she is learning about herself from taking an art class. watching my daughter and i and what comes out in the pottery class we take.  what happens inside me when i choose to begin to write here.

that same year of daniel and this art ?class?, i did a year long study in Genesis and right away at the very beginning i see these words:

in the beginning God created....

and i look around and take in the art of the first Artist.

i listen to the freedom that brings a fellow studier; ?i?m an interior designer.  when i create i am acting as His image bearer.  i never saw myself that way. i always thought my job was fluff compared to ?things more spiritual?

over the course of the year this thing with art shows up everywhere.

over here is a book and a 31 day series on it.

an old Jars of Clay cd is put in the player and this song fills the car.

i win an art class via this blog and discover some art i have not been gifted with....which zeros in my focus and understanding of the art i have been made to create.  i am His image bearer after all.  

my understanding of art broadens beyond paint and canvas, and i begin to appreciate God?s creation and creativity in the world all the more. 

i begin to see how art can draw a person out-the person creating the art or the person experiencing the art another has created.

my son?s favorite subject now in school is art.  

and my vision has been refined and re-focused

to see the Art in Almighty God

and see the art in me

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