"I am guiding you in the way of wisdom, and I am leading you on the right path." proverbs 4:11

the wonder of Christmas

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Published on January 2nd, 2014 @ 11:17:00 pm , using 191 words, 1120 views

our tree is still up

i'm just not ready to move on yet.

Joy to the world, the Lord is come
let earth
             her King 

i'm still finding myself in awe of His coming

Oh the glory of it all
is He came here
for the rescue of us all
that we may live
                                 -David Crowder Band 

all day long i found myself humming this tune-only with my minds focus on wonder, i inadvertantly sang it this way: "Oh the wonder of it all  is He came here...."

i've been thinking about the whole 'New Years' thing.  
            the new goals and resolutions and words

and i've been thinking about Christmas.

and to me, i'd like to back it all up a bit. 

because it seems to me that it's Christmas
        and  His coming
             that makes any new thing even possible.

       His coming as a babe in that manger because there was no room elsewhere
                so He could come and make His home in my heart

oh the glory of it all....
for the rescue of us all....
we will never be the same.....

may this next year not be more of the same
but instead more


forward and back and January has 31 days

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Published on January 1st, 2014 @ 09:16:00 pm , using 312 words, 1303 views


after christmas sale at Hobby Lobby and our outside tree has decorations!

i'm not really with the program here.

yesterday was tuesday, today is wednesday. the calendar still rests on December (tho actually yesterday was New Years Eve and today is New Years Day and it's now January)

we've been spending these days all together. there have been moments of that gut wrenching laughter (i didn't think it had to come at my expense, but whatever), and time up at the cabin and time with family and friends. there have been late nights with new shows to watch (Foyles' War and Inspector Lewis). there have been plenty of the other things that come with being together-the bickering, the taking a walk just to be alone with only the sound of my footsteps.

1000 pieces and 2 days of togetherness

and i've wanted to write about my favorites from 2013 - looking back
and i've wanted to write about my longings for 2014 - looking forward.

but i also know that these days are numbered. the oldest will continue to grow older and in the not too distant future will be doing her own thing with her own friends...driving her own self around. and the other two will follow. and our time together will change into something other than what it is right now.

and right now with these who are right here is right where i want to be. i wish somehow i would have made both the writing and the being happen.

but i've also been hearing some whispering deep within on Wonder. just like the whisperings on provision back in October when the nester hosted her 31 days series.

January has 31 days in it too.

and so today-this 1st day of 2014
i'm slipping in here with a very hesitant and loose commitment to another 31 days of writing

this time through the lens of Wonder.

and He will be called

tidings of comfort and joy

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Published on December 19th, 2013 @ 11:19:00 am , using 230 words, 982 views

bench on a street corner in North Carolina


tomorrow is the last day of school before break.  half a year of 3rd, 5th, and 9th grade over.  2 weeks off to play legos and worship and rest....and maybe if the forecast is accurate a snow fort?  of course there will be bickering and finding ourselves in eachothers way and the smallness of this house will feel too tight at times.  and at other's the smallness of this house will feel cozy and just right.  

as we all enter in with extra food and family and time together....

may we find places of rest where we least expect them, a bench to sit on and someone who speaks our language.  may the wonder of it all, the Love that came down to free us from the vows we take and the prisons we make..... oh this Christmas.... may there be just a little more freedom and a lot more grasping of the height and depth and width and breadth of a Father who loves like no other.  

and the thing i've been praying for the 5 of us under this roof is many many moments of
      gut wrenching
            stomach hurting
                  pants peeing
                           laughter!      may you have the same??

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy.
I came
                  that they may have life
                  and have it abundantly.
I am the good shepherd.   (john 10)

Unwrapping Hope in a story of a golf ball

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Published on December 17th, 2013 @ 04:22:00 pm , using 723 words, 2047 views

it's been a long time of pouring out into lives with the hope that they too could come to know the Only One who can heal their wounds and bind up their broken hearts and give them real peace.

and no one has.

the program that we are connected with is faulty.

we want our programs to work.

the methods we use are weak.

we want our methods to work.

our prayers are genuine....if infrequent.

we want our prayers to work.

some of them have come and sat in our Sanctuary and heard the gospel preached in a beautiful way.

we want our preaching to work.

i remember sitting next to one holding my bible-that i had given to her when she said she wished she had one. and there she sat with the book that had in it all my little notes and milestones of my kids and our life and in that Bible i knew exactly where on a page the particular word i was looking for was. it pained me to give it to her-but i knew what she held in her hands was life. eventually she gave it back to me.

we want our offerings and sacrifices to work.


today, this Tuesday Emily's gathering has my eyes looking for the gift to be unwrapped.

it's almost 1:00 and 5 phone calls into the day and my joy just keeps growing. The first couple were from dear ones that deposit joy, not suck it away. the other 3 could have been joy suckers.

because so much of what we want to work isn't working.

so it seems.

but as i'm filling in one of my co-laborers on the latest developments and latest 'response wisdom' he tells me a story. and he doesn't even know what the Lord is planning to do with this story. it's just a story about a golf ball and a friend and speaking of Christ and how God worked in a way that they both just stood there for a moment speechless. but the current chapter-these 20 or so year later and that friend still rejects the God who worked that day leaving him speechless.

but it hits me.

That is who our God is!

He pursues so. He orchestrates even the landing of a golf ball. and He never stops. It's back to that story of the chess game and He still has moves left and He will continue on with His moves. He doesn't stop.

He won't make us choose Him.

But He will love us to the very end.

oh, our methods fail and succeed, our prayers, our sacrifices. but if we've been around the block a few times we know how utterly powerless we are to really save a life.

But God?

He works. He keeps working.

He doesn't stop.

He promises that our toils are not in vain, and they will produce a harvest if we do not lose heart.

But seriously, there is every reason to lose heart. Don't you know it too? the person you have poured love into and prayed over and before your eyes on a regular basis is all the reasons to lose heart.

the gift given today was not in an uplifting story with a happy fruitful ending. if that's how the golf ball story had gone i would be sitting here discouraged i think. the beauty of that story (and if you are wondering why i'm not telling it it's because it wasn't my story and i don't remember all the details.) the beauty is in the way it reveals the way in which our Father loves.

the gift of joy today is the opening of my eyes to how to keep heart. (find heart? what would be the opposite of losing heart??)

how to keep heart is to remember the One who works. Who loves. Who suffers long. Who is utterly faithful.

Oh the Depths of the riches of the wisdom of God.......

I'm beginning to grasp that there is a hope candle at advent and a peace candle at advent and a joy candle at advent.......because of, and only because of the last candle we light-

that comes down
and Loves......

linking up with emily freeman's
tuesday's unwrapped

the blog looks a little wonky right now.  i just needed to say that.  you can read more about that  here.

not consumed

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Published on December 16th, 2013 @ 10:23:00 pm , using 550 words, 938 views

so plowing forth and letting God use the words even tho the blog looks ugly now and the text might be wonky.....and i can't make links work so you'll have to go back to the post titled 'facelift' to see what i'm talking about. but i did at least figure out how to paste from MS Word without an error.....but the formatting is still a little wonky and not how i like it.  oh well.  giving myself grace! 

"How are you doing?"
"all i have is Jesus....He's the only thing that is sure/secure."
ahhh, giving a concerned look.
because we both know when a person says that, it usually means things are going rough.

and i've been thinking about that all morning.
the truth is.....Jesus as the only rock secure- is always the truth. rough times or not.
and i'd like to remember that

What i long for in growth is that the good things won't compete for my affections, and the hard things won't steal my joy.
the beautiful thing that wrought peace to my heart and brought sleep to my body earlier in the week was this. so the decision was the wrong one and the response was the wrong one, and maybe my children will go down the wrong way tho i have striven so to point them to the right way, and maybe in the work i do, i will do it all wrong and it all may just not work. regardless of my failures real and failures percieved.....

Jesus is my only hope. Jesus is sure. because of Jesus and who He is and what He does,

i can rest secure. i can cease striving because i know that He is God.

Oh that you would rend the heavens and come down,
that the mountains would tremble before You!
As when fire sets twigs ablaze and causes water to boil,
come down to make Your name known to your enemies
and cause the nations to quake before You!

For when you did awesome things that we did not expect,
You came down and the mountains trembled before You.
Since ancient times no one has heard,
no ear has perceived, no eye has seen

any God besides You,

who acts on behalf of those who wait for Him.
You come to the help of those who gladly do right,
who remember Your ways.
But when we continued to sin against them, You were angry.

How then can we be saved?

All of us have become like one who is unclean,
and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags;
we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.


You. are. our. Father.

this I call to mind
and therefore have hope:

Because of the LORD's great love
we are not consumed,
for His compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;

is Your Faithfulness.

I say to myself, 'The LORD is my portion;
therefore I will wait for Him.'
The LORD delights in those who fear Him,
who put their hope in

Those who put their hope
in God's love to not fail?
bring Him delight.

Blessed are the people whose God is the LORD
The Only One Who faithfully, faithfully gives

pardon for sin
and a peace that endureth
Thine own dear Presence
to cheer and to guide
strength for today
and bright Hope for tomorrow


Isaiah 64 (from this morning's advent reading at church); Lamentations 3; Psalm 147; 144; a Hymn



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