"I am guiding you in the way of wisdom, and I am leading you on the right path." proverbs 4:11

But God...

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Published on May 15th, 2013 @ 11:52:00 pm , using 700 words, 1665 views

(just an aside, it?s not wise to declare;  ?Aha!  here?s another ?but? verse!!? whilst teaching a room full of 5-8th graders when some of them are boys....because of course they will think you have said the butt word and at Bible Study no less!!  which reminds me of the time during prayer years ago with my own boys; ?Dear God, tho we are but dust, You love us?  giggles and giggles....

?uh mom, what is butt dust???

?merely dust, only dust, came from dust...?

?oh, i was thinking it was something that happened when you tooted?)

Ha Ha

moving on....

i?m finishing up a year in Genesis.  i began to see a pattern emerging early on...and then began seeing it elsewhere.  so i started a list:  (maybe look up the context for better understanding??)

Genesis 3:8-9  Adam and Eve;  "they hid from the LORD God...
....But the LORD God called to the man." 

Genesis 6:13, 18  ?So God said to Noah, ?I am going to put an end to all people, for the earth is filled with violence because of them.  I am surely going to destroy both them and the earth.
.....BUT I will establish My covenant with you, and you will enter the ark.?

Genesis 11:5  ?But the Lord came down....(to see the city and tower the men were building.)?

Genesis 12 Abraham lies and Sarah is taken into Pharaoh's haram; 
-But the LORD inflicted Pharaoh's house with disease....and Pharaoh says to Abram; "why did you lie? now then, here is your wife, take her and go." 

 Psalm 73:22  ?I was senseless and ignorant; i was a brute beast before you.
....YET i am always with You; You hold me by my right hand.  You guide me with Your concel, and afterward You will take me into glory.? 

Isaiah 63:15-16  ?Your tenderness and compassion are witheld from us.
....BUT You are our Father....You oh Lord, are our Father, our Redeemer From Old is Your name.?

Psalm 73:26  ?We are all weakness...
....BUT God is the strength of my heart.

Genesis 26:1-6  ?There was a famine in the land and Isaac went to Abimelech-king of the Philistines....
....BUT the Lord appeared to Isaac;  ?Do not go down to Egypt; live in the land where I tell you to live.  Stay....and I will be with you and will bless you....I will....I will....I will....?

Genesis 27  Isaac plans to bless Esau
....BUT it?s Jacob instead......

....BUT God brings him to surrender and faith  (v.33 i blessed [Jacob] and indeed he will be blessed; Heb 11:20 by faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau in regard to their future.)

Genesis 28:10-22  Jacob alone, rock bottom...BUT God. comes. to. him.  ......in a dream

Genesis 31:38-42  ?If the God of my father, the God of Abraham and the Fear of Isaac, had not been with me, you would surely have sent me away empty handed.
....BUT God has seen my hardship and the toil of my hands, and last night he rebuked you (Laban).?

Genesis 39:20  ?Joseph?s master took him and put him in prison, the place where the kings prisoners were confined.
....BUT....the Lord was with him.  He showed him kindness and granted him favor in the eyes of the prison warden.?

Genesis 40:23-41:8  ?The cheif cupbearer, however, did not remember Joseph; he forgot him.....  when 2 full years had passed, Pharoah had a dream
....BUT no one could intrepret them for him.  THEN the cheif cupbearer [remembered Joseph]....so Pharaoh sent for Joseph and he was quickly brought from the dungeon...?

Genesis 45:4-8  ?i am your brother Joseph, the one you sold into Egypt!......for two years now there has been famine in the land
....BUT God sent me ahead of you to preserver for you a remnant on earth and to save your lives by a great deliverance.  So then, it was not you who sent me here, BUT God...?

Genesis 50:20  ?you intended evil,
....BUT God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives...?

 Genesis 50:24  ?i (Joseph) am about to die,
...BUT God will surely come to your aid and take you up out of this land to the land He promised on oath to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.?

 and so i can confidently say;

But God will certainly come to your aid......

But God comes down.....

Grace Amazing....

nothing, no one

But God

Hope recieved

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Published on April 29th, 2013 @ 11:49:00 pm , using 108 words, 2502 views
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for those of us clinging (barely desperately) to hope....

 ?He is constant.? *

?You, you are worth it.? **

?Trust what you have received? ***

(*Holly over at Africa Our Own Home;  **Katie over at Amazina; ***Brennan Manning from his book Ruthless Trust...and i just discovered that he went Home a couple of weeks ago....sigh.)

Pondering the truths spoken with the weight of experience and reality.  letting it all sink in.

my thoughts on the past few weeks are scattered and disorganized. 

but the Constant One is remaining Constant.

the truth is remaining truth; ?You are worth it.?

the assignment is remaining the assignment; ?Trust what you have received?.....




Hope Vinegar

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Published on April 17th, 2013 @ 04:39:00 pm , using 479 words, 1068 views
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this house. it?s dust filled crevices and too much spewing out of everywhere.  i sweep and sweep and still, who could tell?  the sink shines up and sets a good tone for a moment. if only for a moment.  and in the endless sweeping and washing of peed in clothes and sheets....i ponder.

this house is my heart.  it shines up nice and presents itself at times for the world.  but the stench of exhaustion spews out and stains everything and everyone it comes in contact with.  vinegar works every time-in the tangible mess of sheets. but what is the vinegar for my heart?  what will take this stench away?  both from me and those i?ve wrecked? 

and i read Genesis-the entire book.  and it?s full of families.  families. that. are. a. complete. mess. 
sons who murder, fathers who abandon.  love so fractured that it poisons instead of nourishes. 

and i see me there.  and i see my own parents there.  and i fear to see my children there. 

i?ve been taught to ask-what does this text tell me about me?  about God?


God comes down.  He preserves what we try to destroy.  He rescues what we murder.  He restores what we?ve torn apart.  He shows grace-sometimes it feels even offensive-this grace.  (duh. grace IS offensive.)

but more than anything else these family portraits of Genesis tell me that

 He. is. Powerful.

Almighty, Mighty, Powerful God.

the God of Abraham=God who declares righteous by faith

the God of Isaac=God who provides the lamb

the God of Jacob=God who stays with His sinful people-wherever they go and who fills that heart hole (?bless me!?) to those clinging in utter weakness.  the God who wounds to heal.

the God of me=God who never lets go and is powerful enough to overcome.....it. all.

all the wrecking i?ve done, the messes i?ve made, the sin i?ve lived each day with this brood who shares this place of no hiding. 

i have never wanted to wound, these ones i love so much it hurts.  but wound i do.  and sin. and they do it too.  there is no formula to make us immune-no vaccine that we can take to stop the poison.

But God.

He stops it.





dare i admit that sometimes i feel like giving up?  both in the washing of the sheets and the washing of my heart?

But God. 

He comes and He stops up the poison, and He bandages up the wounds, and He gives strength to say i am sorry and will you forgive me and i love you.  He keeps working out His plan for me....and for them.

He overcomes powerfully.

 and we keep at this family thing. 

i keep at this parenting thing.

because He is helping me to believe

He is God Almighty

El Elohe Israel

Mighty is the God of Israel.

Hope building and The Silver Chair

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Published on April 7th, 2013 @ 04:36:00 pm , using 292 words, 1119 views
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ok, so i didn?t know this would be a series....i didn?t know the interlude posts would be one either. 

it is just like Jesus, to answer my questions/prayers this way.  daily and over time.

today, i didn?t know the kids would pick C.S. Lewis? The Silver Chair to listen to (via FOTF?s Radio Theatre)  (are you catching the theme of how much i just don?t know??)

The Silver Chair is my most favorite.  for me-the most hope building. 

Jill makes so many mistakes.  from the very beginning-mistake!  absolutely, her journeys would be easier without all these mistakes.  yet the beauty of it is that Aslan helps her along the way anyway.  and his help is all the more precious partnered with the mistakes. 

every time i listen to this one, hope builds.  principles of the realities of life shine.  gems like...

Jill: "I bet we sleep well tonight."

Narrator ?Which just shows how little anyone knows what is going to happen to them next?

so if you are in need of a burst of hope-pick up The Silver Chair for a good read (or listen).  actually, if i think about it, i?d say pick up any of the 7 books.  For there are treasures in all of them, and maybe the gem you need is in a different one? 

and in those treasures... hope to keep going builds.

what is interesting to me these last days is that just as hope begins to build, something happens to re-enforce the ?logic? in giving up.  the weight of impossibility threatens to engulf.

i feel like i?m on a see-saw.

Yet, like Aslan and Jill.....

Jesus keeps bringing His help along the way.

and it is all the more precious partnered with my desperate need for it.  

Hope...part 2

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Published on April 1st, 2013 @ 04:29:00 pm , using 586 words, 1273 views

reflecting on yesterday?s post, it reads a bit more pollyanna than i intended.

you see, He?s taken me far with grasping His deep deep love for me.  Amy Carmichael?s words; (found in her book; "Rose from Briar") ?Thy Calvary stills all my questions? applies to my questions about His love.  He proved it-He settled it.

but my hope issues of late, they?ve been related to His power, not His love. 

Amy once wrote in one of her books about a dream.  people were stumbling over the edge of a cliff to their death.  where there were Christians linked in arm at the edge of the cliff, the people were being stopped.  but where there were holes in the chains, the people were stumbling over. 

Emily Freeman wrote recently about lifeguards.  

it?s so freeing to recognize that i have been assigned only a portion of the pool....or the cliff.

but what i?ve forgotten is that if the people in my world step over me-or get out of the pool and go home, Jesus is bigger than all of that.

this was me....

The whole head is sick
And the whole heart is faint.
From the sole of the foot even to the head
There is nothing sound in it,
Only bruises, welts and raw wounds,
Not pressed out or bandaged,
Nor softened with oil.  
(Isaiah 1)

Jesus plucked me out.  He did it.  He bound and healed my wounds, soothed them with Himself.  He?s broken patterns of thinking and living.  and He?s teaching me all about joy.

but what about when the ones i love dearly, they want none of it?  they remain with their bruises, welts and raw wounds....refusing bandages and the soothing oil of the Father?

i begin to feel like satan is winning.  and that sucks away my hope.  i forget Jesus? power. 

then my pastor shared this story-it?s just a story, (i can?t tell if it?s true- there is a real painting, but no matter-the point is what i needed either way.)  ...and it struck again to the question i?ve been asking even tho i hadn?t formed it into words.

the painting shows satan as the winner-checkmate.  the man-lost and desparing.  the way Gary told it; upon further study a man declared; "It's a lie!  the king and the knight still have moves left!" 

the winner is Christ.  and He still has moves left.  in the lives of those i love-He still has moves left.  they may or may not involve me.  i may or may not get to see them.  but no matter.  i just needed to remember.....

the hope of His calling

His incomparably great power for us who believe.  That power is like the working of His mighty strength, which He exerted in Christ when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand....  (ephesians 1)

it feels quite foolish, shameful even to have lost sight of how mighty my God is.  but it?s the truth, i did.

the grief over the losses is still there.  but grief with hope is quite a different thing than grief without hope.  He grieves too

He rescued me.  He continues to rescue me.  it is not hopeless.

thank you Mighty God.

He came to bind up the brokenhearted, bring good news to the poor, release captives from prison, to soothe wounds with the oil of joy in place of mourning.  (isaiah 61) His resurrection proves that His ways of doing this are victorious.   

There is hope. Christ still has moves left.

He indeed has risen.  that is His best move ever!


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